Being yourself ♥

Being you in life is the most gracious gift any human being could possibly be gifted with, it takes courage, honesty, determination, and it just takes guts, so don’t freaking change!!!

Cause people don’t just leave you the hell alone to be courageous and to have the guts for living the way you like, even if it’s only you and you don’t ask them to be so too!! They just love you being any other person rather than being you!! But um here declaring that no matter what, you shouldn’t let go of yourself, cause then you will just feel lost!! Be thankful for a gift like this, don’t change your personality, don’t lose your guts, or even slow it down a bit for someone to feel more powerful than you and to make them feel good about themselves, don’t put on faces and change your own colors, believe me I’ve tried to do it before and it made me wanna run away and start all over again, with me just being me!! 

As it’s so simple as it sounds, but to be frank it is not gonna be simple and plain in this kind of world when “some” people, and yes I prefer to convince myself that they are just some people to preserve my sanity, they like to play roles, put on faces and personas they just are not, to drag you to like them, they buy you dinner, say nice things, agree with you in everything you say just to complement you, and after a while they change!!!!!!! they start being cold out of nowhere, they lie, they use you to go shopping or talk about their issues, to listen to their crap that they repeat over and over again, and if once, just once, you tried to talk a bit more about one thing that belongs to you, they stop listening to you, as if you are bothering them, or keeping them busy from achieving their temporary goals and successes, but um glad to tell you guys that they are just wrong, yes they are indeed, cause when this kind of life crap is over after thirty years, you either find a bunch of friends or even only one good friend around you to talk to or you are gonna find yourself alone!! So you are free to choose and then deal with your choice for the rest of your life!! This is not how good people treat each other; neither do friends, especially close ones!!!!! Yes I know how awful it may sound, but this is the ugly truth that I’ve been denying ages ago, thinking that may be one day I will keep a true person that stays true for years without changing suddenly, and I can’t believe that I’ve doubted myself for years that may be um just wrong, the way I see things so simple, the way I think of a real life perspective. 

Say you pronounced a famous trademark wrong, SO FREAKING WHAT!!!!! So you dress not so fashionably or you don’t know the freaking weird names they name clothes and furniture stuff, so freaking what!!!!! It doesn’t define you as a person, and it will never do, what defines you as a person is your principles, your personality, your way of thinking and dealing with life, that’s what freaking matters the most. I just feel sorry for those who first see in a person is how he dresses or talks or says freaking things, I feel sorry for those who so pathetically think that being ill with some disease in the past is a disgrace for a person to say or declare!!!!! I feel sorry for those who just judge people by their appearances, not by their gifts and talents and their “real themselves”, or judge you forever for a word that slipped out of your mouth and no matter how badly you wanted to and tried to make it right, they just don’t let you do, I also feel sorry for those who don’t appreciate a true friend because of some life race bullshit, and excuse my language, cause um just tired of stumbling into this kind of people!!!! tired of being manipulated or misused, tired of their sick poisoned toxic ways of treating other people, um tired of all of that. 

The bottom line is don’t try too hard for someone to embrace you, cause if they did embrace you, that’s good for them, and if they didn’t, then they may go straight to hell without any stops. Hang on to yourselves, cause they are just, simply, perfectly AWESOME, you are perfect in the most imperfect ways, don’t change your great quality treats for people who are just trash, love your selves cause they are just worth loving. ♥

                                                                              Thursday, 3-jan.-2013, 3:01pm